The Kernel of Strength

Some time ago I attended an authentic movement workshop and it was a powerful, moving experience, largely because I let it be. The beautiful environment with its reassurance of safety and judgelessness, and the guidance and structure of the workshop were all wonderful, but if you’re gonna get in your own way and decide to sit with your walls up, then you’re not going to help move the emotions through and get anywhere, right? So I decided that I was going to offer myself up and move as I felt compelled to move, and not worry about what it might look like. That’s rather the point of such a practice. Not that I didn’t feel resistance in myself: I held back on the noises-front and would love to become freer with that one, but decided that a practice devoted to free movement meant that movement was the place to start. And so that was what I opened myself up to. And in opening up and moving freely, I saw some lovely images drift into my mind’s eye. The one that I ended up painting afterward is this simple image:

Kernel of Strength

I was feeling a bit overwhelmed with a lot of changes in my life at the time, and there was a lot of sadness and fear with some of those changes, and as I lay on the floor in this workshop with tears sliding into my hair in sweet release, it was this image I was seeing.

It is the kernel of strength in the centre of my sadness. It is the untouchable seed that is forever ready to explode with potential. It is what is solid at my core and the sadness around it is merely the situation, the context, NOT the actual centre of myself. However close that swirling blue sea may come, that kernel of strength emits such a buffer of light that it is protected and – I know – ever-present.

And there is such a seed at the centre of everyone. I know mine is there because I can feel it: I’ve tested it and rubbed up against it enough times that its reality has been reminded to me time and again. And it is so good to know that it is there. But others may not have felt it before – perhaps have not had to find out, and both can be good things in their way. But however poised and polished we try to be, at the end of the day we are tough, scrappy, beautiful animals, hell-bent on surviving, and we are made of some strong shit. 

If you feel like you’re drowning in work, obligations, fear, sadness, or whatever else, please allow me to remind you that you are stronger than you think you are, and that you have a kernel of strength at the centre of everything – untouched by all else – and it is inextinguishable, unsmashable, and undrownable. Always.




New show at Art Yard

Howdy art peeps,

I’m in another group show at Art Yard this month – some of the same other artists as last time (but with different work), and many new artists. I’ve got 10 pieces is this show and I’d sure they’d be happy to be visited by you. The show starts TODAY and ends on June 26th.

Come on down to the reception on Saturday June 21 from 4pm to 6pm if ya wanna hang out with yours truly and a bunch of other cool cats surrounded by a diverse mix of funky art. Aw heck yeah.

Art Yard is at 30 Abell Street (off Queen West, near Trinity Bellwoods) in Toronto. See ya there!

All show deets here.


La Prism de Candace

Hey there! I live in a prism now! It’s lots of fun and there are at least 5 of me at all times. I get to think so many thunks at once!

I’ve been meaning to post for a month now: Wandering Educators interviewed me! You can check it the pictures and the words over here: TA DA! Hope you enjoy it. …Let me know what you think?


Salon 8 on NOW!

Happy New Year, folks!

So, I’ve reeeeally been slacking with this whole blogging thing. And I’ve got a few pieces in a group show that’s happening RIGHT NOW.

Propeller Gallery‘s 8th annual Salon show is up and ready for your viewing pleasure, and will continue until January 26th. Go check it out!

Propeller is at 984 Queen Street West, and is open Wednesdays – Saturday from 12-6, and on Sundays from 12-5.


Group Xmas Show: Opening Reception tonight!

Tonight’s the night!


I’ve got a couple pieces in a group Xmas show at Flying Pony, which is at 1481 Gerrard St East (at Coxwell) in Toronto. The opening party tonight’s from 6pm to 8pm.

If you’re in the east end, check it out! 🙂

Gettin’er done!

It’s been a productive weekend here in the studio. Hunkered down for a few days and lookit what happened! BAM. Finished all these guys that I had started a couple weeks ago. Queen West Art Crawl, I’m ready for ya!


One of my roommates just told me that, for the most part, they look like a bunch of passport photos. How awesome is that?! C’mon down n’ geeeetchyer passport photo at Trinity Bellwoods in September. Ha ha!

The show’s up! And opening night is in 4 days!


The show has been hung! There’s something colourful on the walls at 3030 Dundas in the Junction (Toronto). And a number of these colourful things are brand-spankin’ new. Actually, LOTS of this stuff isn’t on my website yet; if you wanna see it, you’ve gotta come out! MWAH HAH HA!! 

Opening: Saturday, March 9 at 7pm

The band starts at 9:30: you’ll get to hear both Kayla Howran and Amanda Mead, followed up by a DJ-ed dance party.


Art show coming up in a week!

Hey art lovers! There’s a funky lil’ place in the Junction (Toronto) called 3030 Dundas, which also happens to reside at the address it’s named after (funny that), and I’m having an art show there starting next week.

OPENING NIGHT PAR-TAY: Saturday, March 9 at 7pm

You get me and the art, and as if THAT’S not enough (right?), you also get the musical talents of Kayla Howran and Amanda Mead at 9:30.


There’ll be new art, there’ll be music, there’ll be drinks, there’ll be friends and fun times. What’s not to like? Come on down!

The show’s up for a month, starting this Tuesday, March 5. But if you can come out next Saturday, come out next Saturday!

See you next weekend. 🙂